Can you feel my-y...dirty desire?

When I'm alone at night I sit and fantasize
And in my fantasies I love you long ti-ime..."

I woke up this morning, and all I could think of was...the ex.
It's been a while since I've ever had this problem, but I guess it's a common problem in this city. Every person I run into seems to have this problem too, it's just a matter of keeping silent.
You see, I miss my ex so much that when I woke up I cried...I called my ex's name out loud and licked the tears from my cheeks.


I know you thought about it,
but it's all in your head.
And you can't wait to see me,
To see me in the flesh.

But that's not the worst part of the whole thing, the worst part is that I'm not single one bit. HER son is having his birthday party but I told HER I'm not coming. You know, my ex wanted me so bad to come visit so much, and I humored my ex but I didn't quite arrive when my ex was expecting me...actually my ex didnt expect me at all, but that's not important...:'(
But eventually your friends will warn you that your love will run away its okay go play another day just stay and pray that today will be okay.
Hmmph. That was some prayer i prayed last December.


I see you really need to
Get this thing off your chest
But all you know, I gotta get you back in my nest.

The rescue effort continues for the family of the one who I cant stop thinking about nowadays. It's just insensitive to me that I can't focus on the girl next to me with the loudspeaker in my brain telling me that it was stupid to let go of love. But there are many fish in the ocean, if only I could be one of those prize fisherman who can help get the best ones. And the sadness is...I think this was the intent from the beginning...that subtle hint better be the truth...if not...I am chasing rainbows again.

Wrong what you're doing babe, you're not my boyfriend,
Long as you know babe, I'm not your girlfriend."

Thank you for reading this memoir.