The Return to Online Life

AFTER A SABBATICAL FROM MY ONLINE LIFE
IT'S QUITE RELIEVING TO RETURN FINALLY.
LIFE IS FULL OF UPS AND DOWNS
BUT I CAN SAY I'VE FINALLY GOTTEN BETTER AT RIDING THE WAVES.

ANYWAY I'M BACK IN THE COCKPIT AGAIN
AND I'LL FLY UNTIL THE STARS FALL ON ME
RIDE UNTIL THE WAVES CRASH DOWN ON ME.
AND I WILL FINISH WHAT I SET OUT TO DO!

WILL I BECOME A CEO LIKE MY BUNSO OTOUTO RANDELL RAMOS?
OR WILL I BE THE RELIGIOUS FIGUREHEAD OF MY CONFERENCE?
WILL I RISE TO THE TOP OF THE EDUCATIONAL SYSTEM
OR BE THE AMBASSADOR TO EVERY COUNTRY KNOWN TO MAN?

MY AMBITION LIKE LU BU'S IS INSATIABLE
MY TYRANNY MUCH MORE THAN DONG ZHOU'S IS INDELIBLE
MY SWAGGER HAS DEVELOPED FAR MORE THAB SOULJA BOY'S
AND MUCH LIKE LADY GAGA, I WAS BORN THIS WAY!

TIME TO BE LIKE THE KELLY AND BELIEVE I CAN FLY
TIME TO BE LIKE THE PERRY AND LET MY COLORS BURN
TIME TO BE LIKE THE CARSON AND REALIZE I GOT GIFTED HANDS
AND TRULY, TIME TO BE THE JOURNEY AND DON'T STOP BELIEVING!

BOYS
GIRLS
IT'S GAME TIME
AND TWINTENSHI IS BACK IN DA HOUSE!

um dear..i am very much here often...
but my fb.. m.facebook.com/rsurbano
its been deactivated temporarily...
so if u have twitter im @tenurbano
and if u have skype im twintenshi.
and my ym is neomopia.
so what are you waiting for dear? hit me up!

im waiting on u still...

so where r u babe?

One More Chance

I'm so glad you did this
Im so glad you gave me one more chance.
Im so glad you loved me enough to think of me.

Praise God above for what he has done for me
by helping you face your fears. I love you.
Give me another chance...I begged it
You heard me and reopened the door

What can I do now but just be grateful?
You are the person who helped me out of my hole
in what was undoubtedly the worst time in my life.
I always heard I loved you...Always

I never proved it to myself that you were the object of affection
but i have proved it to myself that my life would never be the same without you.
And after all we have been through, Naoto...
All the lies and all the times we thought we were lying...

...I have come to realize one thing...
I love and I cant live without you Naoto...

Thank you
Thank you
Thank you

My best friend

And my forever Sun...

Thank you.

Do you know? (Vector)

Told myself for a long time
don't go there
you will only be sorry
Told myself so many times
I just had to take a look
in those faraway eyes..

In them I saw a longing
for something
Maybe I couldn't give you
Said it's all in my mind
"It ain't nothing"

Don't say that
Don't say that
darling no
Don't say anything at all
Because I've seen it now
Can't pretend anymore
"It ain't nothing"

*Chorus*
Do you know what I mean?
And have you seen it too?
Do you know what I mean?
Do you know?
And I'll do anything
just tell me what it means
Cause I can't live in doubt anymore
Do we try or should we
just say goodbye

If you'd rather be somewhere
that's not here
then you just gotta tell me
Cause there's so much more to life, than pretending

Don't you know
Don't you know
darling for you
I'd do anything at all
I wanna be with you
but that look in your eyes
tells me something

*Chorus repeat*

I wanna know
can you tell me
I wanna know
will you tell me
is it hello
is it good bye

I gotta know
won't you tell me
I gotta know
you can tell me
is it hello
or just goodbye

I gotta know
can you tell me
I gotta know
will you tell me
is it hello
is it goodbye

I gotta know
won't you tell me
I gotta know
You can tell me
is it hello
is it goodbye

Adios 2008

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x5nHM1maM98
watch this link.

do we forget each other when time runs out? does it drive us to the point of isolation? or will we survive on our own? we will survive i know but our hearts will be dead inside...we've fought enough...already

the path to a new year

this past year has been a real eyesore to me. it is ending with so much pain so little time to think. but through it all god has been good to a man like me who doesnt deserve another second of life. i used to fight death of myself but after what i've been through this year i see no more reason to fight death. god you have let me live so far. you've let people in and out of my life but there is something i waited to do all year and it's time has finally come. from this moment on i will stop making friends with people who are against my core values. from now on i will stop forming relationships that put another person down. and in the end one thing is true...2011 will either find me dead most probably or a new and better individual. that i swear will be what takes me through the next three days on my countdown to new years eve...AND I'LL FOREVER LEAVE WHOEVER WAS IN MY PAST BEHIND AND WALK FORWARD WITH MY LIFE...THAT IS MY RESOLUTION.

birthday gift

so today jeff changed my life and made me sure i have a reason to live. yes, i wanted to kill myself, my sun had abandoned me and jeff was too busy at the moment. and one by one friends began leaving me...i couldnt take it. then after days of pain i was diagnosed with cancer in my ribs and was given few options to survive. i'm going to be operated on soon but i must sigh because the pain and weakness on december 9th was so great i almost killed myself and then...if you want to see the video the youtube user bukal uploaded it and published it. i'm so blessed to have him save my life...i'm gonna go now i'm so overcome by emotion and you will be too if you watch jeffs video to me

Park Amsterdam ^^

one day, sitting in a tree
i couldn't help but notice you there in the park
you weren't like all the others
you could fit me in your pocket
and just seemed so large

but then you really tried to talk to me
we chatted all about your mom and everything
and if somebody pointed out the fact you have no wings...
wouldn't mean a thing

and like a dream we saw the world together
"goodbye" to differences
"hello" to each other
harmony
unity
day and night
you and me
and paradise
met the queen of hearts
while out dancing on the lake
and she asked us to a party
"you can bring some friends
but don't be late"
climbed aboard a bus
and it drove us to the castle
but we didin't have to pay
cause the driver was the jester's brother
sadly sighed the king
cause somebody took his cake
so we gave him some of ours
and he smiled so wide
he at his plate
he asked you to sing
and i won't forget the faces
or the awful melody
you and jester singing out of key
not a better time
could be had for all the moment
the king beamed, "allow me please"
"let my ballon take you across the ocean"
(you and me across the ocean,
in his ballon, you and me and harmony)

didin't try to put me in a cage of your convenience
like some others have
instead you took me to your favorite garden in Manhattan
and we had a laugh

along the way i fell in love with you
don't think i could ever get enough of you
and if somebody pointed out the fact that you can't sing...
wouldn't mean a thing

Don't you let

Don't you let yourself fall in love
With a boy who wont put 100% into you
When you put 100% into him.
And all he does is break your heart

When all your efforts don't matter to him anymore
And the last of your energy is wasted on trying
Trying the hardest you can to forget him
And to plead with God why he would let this happen.

When you let yourself fall in love
you open up any heart that you have left
after he stole your original
And you leave your sanity behind

For when you chose to love me, you were insane
Love is not sensible, it is insanity
You love someone only to have them break your heart
over...and over again...